Is the Challenge Too Scary?

I would wake up with the obsessiveness of each challenge every day and that's what things just get tiresome. I'd also like spend a lot of the day almost like fretting or in like a state where I couldn't concentrate because I'm just thinking about the next challenge. Losing sleep over that shit. But there's a personal reward factor that I miss to it. It was really gratifying last year to feel like you're not putting yourself through all that like loss of sleep and everything as well. Like they say one thing to remember: freedom of our sport is that it is self-led.Like we're all putting ourselves into these stressful stuff. Yeah, I've