You're Saying You Were Going Through the Motions, the Cycles

In the middle of thinking about how I was going to change things, my father died and he died by suicide actually. So that, that, I mean, it should, it should go without saying, but it's just like it completely rewrote my life. It does that for so many people,. you know, losing a loved one, having your first sort of head on collision with just how chaotic life actually is.