There's something very different, weird, unique about you, right? And to the degree that you become aware of that, because when you were three or four years old, you were very aware of it. So i'm going back to the thing we talk about earlier. You want things just because other people want them, riting ot of memetic desire. The moment you fall for that myth and you lose contact with wat, and it doesn't have to be grand it's not like your napoleon. Maybe you're, what you secretly love is working with your hands, in building things, and being a great carpenter, or even being a great parent. I don't care