How to Cope With Alcoholism

I was just thinking about how when I first met Sam at up until that point I blacked out a bunch yeah. And in college I was like known for blacking out and he had never blacked out before. He thought that was like really weird that I did but when I think about back to our hometown and like our friends I feel like we've all blackedout a bunch. Oh for sure I don't remember most of my life. Most of my 20s I will say. Right like I'm trying to figure out other coping mechanism. Like even until the school it's illegal in New Jersey. Wait do they know I live in New Jersey? Yeah okay yes yes.