I think i'm always and have forever been, somebody that's been looking for joy a. Nothing does make me happier than seeing other people experience joy  and may be having some sense of closeness to it. In our family's life, it's just abbies like carbonation. It's like like the still water, abby just brings the carbonation. We recently hadiad, and my mam was here for a few days, and abby wasn't here, and it was like all the carbnation was gone. I didn't know how to make things magic for my mamma just was sitting there like, what? Now, it'sjust the