After Doubt: How to Question Your Faith and Reconstruct with Integrity - w/ A.J. Swoboda
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"I think AJ, I mean AJ obviously can speak for himself and thanks for bringing that up during your interview. But his bigger point was just, hey, this is terrain that is very explored in the Christian life," she says. "Unless you have guides who have a bit of perspective, it's very easy to feel isolated ... What am I doing?"
How the church, scripture, and even your past can be reclaimed—not discarded—through the necessary, messy process of spiritual doubt and reconstruction. Author and professor A.J. Swoboda joins Mike and Tim to talk through the nuanced, painful, and transformative journey outlined in his book, "After Doubt: How to Question Your Faith Without Losing It." Together, they explore how real faith often grows not in certainty but in surrender—wrestling with hard questions that don’t have easy answers, while staying tethered to the person and faithfulness of Jesus.
Key Takeaways: • Doubt as a Spiritual Discipline – Why doubt doesn’t signal failure but can serve as a powerful catalyst for refining and deepening a more durable faith. • The Three Stages of Faith Formation – Understanding construction, deconstruction, and reconstruction as cyclical parts of any maturing theological journey. • Inherited Faith vs. Invented Faith – How to honor and critique the faith traditions we’ve been handed without discarding their value or history. • The Role of Emotions in Faith – Rage, grief, and lament are valid and often necessary spiritual expressions. The Psalms—and Jesus—make space for that pain. • Reading Dead Christians – How engagement with voices across church history can temper modern arrogance and help us discern between core convictions and cultural assumptions. • Beliefs Matter, But Belief Isn’t Everything – Swoboda emphasizes faith as trust in the person of Jesus, not just intellectual agreement with doctrine. • The Risk of Apathy vs. the Gift of Curiosity – Why staying engaged—even when exhausted or disillusioned—can lead not to the loss of faith, but its rebirth. • Deconstruction for the Sake of Love – Healthy deconstruction pushes us toward a more honest, loving, and Jesus-shaped faith, while toxic deconstruction either abandons the faith altogether or creates God in our image.
Guest Highlights: A.J. Swoboda – Author, theologian, and professor. A.J. brings a rare combination of deep academic insight, pastoral tenderness, and lived experience growing up between secular and evangelical worlds. With humility and vulnerability, he shares how his own story of doubt, identity crises, and rediscovered trust in Jesus informs the practices outlined in "After Doubt."
Resources Mentioned: • "After Doubt" by A.J. Swoboda – ajswobodawrites.com • The Book of Hebrews – Swoboda’s current course focus and touchpoint throughout the conversation. • Dallas Willard – On joyful resistance and intellectual humility. • C.S. Lewis – A Grief Observed – Referenced for understanding God as the “great iconoclast.” • Dead Christian Thinkers & Early Church Voices – Augustine, Athanasius, Teresa of Calcutta, Martin Luther. • Fuller Seminary & Dr. Love Sechrest on Lament Psalms – Insights on rage and spiritual protest.
Join us as we navigate a road that many walk but few discuss honestly—losing and rediscovering faith in a way that feels emotionally authentic, biblically rich, and genuinely Jesus-centered.
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