You Don't Have to Suppress Yourself

This book describes to me the feeling of the wall, which is where everything you've ever done to make you feel close to god doesn't work any more. The onlycanthik thing you can think of is giving up. It's actually that point that you work out, either god is going to show up and rescue me, and it might take years or god isn't strong enough to do that. I don't know if i really want to believe in that god. And the relief for me of going, i am not the first person to be here,. People come out the other side of this journey different, and it's ok. That sense of being able to recognize that this