Is All This Meaning That My Previous Teachings Are Junk?

i'm going to be watching myself like a hawk, any kind of acting out emotional reactivity, im ly looking for that like a hawk. You become more aware of these little subtle, like egoic dynamics that are subtly corrupting all o your expressions and behaviours with all the people around you. Like sometimes i would give myself just cart blanche or license to act out. But then when i do that, i notice a negative impact that it has on my audience, my students, someone that i'm communicating with that i don't like. And so i realize that i have to become more careful about what i teach.