I'm on the Verge of Inbalanced Mental Health

i clean and stall my mac operating system and everything else, sometimes multiple times a year. i'm trying to gain some sort of control over what feels very chaotic. I love a fresh install. And then i will just consider all my aps again and bring them in. Then i will, you know, decide what notes to bring in. M ok, so this here's, hereis what this is about i i have this, this problem, and it's like sort of an addiction something. And it's, it's addictive behavior.