Rose McGowan was the first person I interviewed for this podcast and she said we are raising girls to be polite and it is killing us. From the outside it looked like you were beautiful and powerful that there would be a power that came with being a well-known model but actually you're repeatedly treated in a shocking way. How much of these realizations have come to you in recent years and how much do you think you knew at the time? "I chose instead to focus on the very real power which comes with making a lot of money"