How Do You Hold Mathematics?

i was often in the habit of, likin hoarding books in this way. As i work enough, i cound learn how physics actually works. That's that's greats ar. How do you hold mathematics? Now, it's tricky. When i was, again, very depressed and grat school. And so eventually it became like, very hard to be motivated to do anything such aswell, it's iedosal.