I just have trust issues. I don't like, I've just had too many bad experiences where I tell someone about my feelings and then I feel worse. They make me feel worse. So that's not going to help your relationships. It's a really bad habit. And so we're going to like retrain those neurons. We got to like retrained those neurons. Right. Well said. You know, what's your understanding of why you've become so self reliant? I just haven't been able to express myself in public for 26 years. That was the biggest thing when I became a live streamer because I didn't feel comfortable expressing myself with people on a live stream.