The Violin Side of Me Is Apart With Me, You Know?

I started to listen to music with Stefan not to play it for him on the violin I mean but to find recordings of it that I, that I enjoyed. And so I feel like a combination of Stefan and my sister really allowed me to like connect with some sides of myself that had nothing to do with music. But then in doing that, I started to also start to reconnect with music up that as it was separated with the violin. So I don't know how I don't see how I could separate it because I don't think I'd like to sound bad, you know? "It's not that it's not that the violin side is not also aside with me"