I was just like oh I'm going in the Navy I want to be a seal they tell me to do something. I'm gonna do it like that was my attitude so and it might have been beneficial it seems like it was beneficial, but it also disconnected me from even really any recognition of How hard seal training is. To me there was just two groups of people Me and my buddies and everyone else and we didn't know them and they just went away And then we were all going to the teams It was like oh who yeah, we're going to the Teams So it was almost like this weird like now when I hear some of the statistics and you know more about it and and You