I Love People, but I Hate Them, and I'm Always Last to Board

I'd personally like to kill, kick a door in while he's holding court, and shove his head in the toilet where it belongs. It really doesn't matter what they've done to me. I'm helpless to have mercy when it's asked of me. And above all else, i can't stand to see someone in pain or fear. The first time i truly stood up for myself, stood up for an idea, broke through apathy, took action in real life,. i felt the spirit smile, sne the universe taking notice. Standing up ti the world felt like being atop a hill on a roller coaster. My stomach lurched. Because it was unusual, against my previous nature