The Importance of Emotional English

I grew up singing in bars since I was eight. Yodeling for lumberjack. But when I was moving out, I did know how dangerous it was,. statistically kids like me end up repeating the cycle. The odds of working out for me were very, very slim and I took that very seriously. And then I began to wonder what if my personality is actually just a response to my nurture. What's the difference between my most authentic personality and things like being suspicious or mistrustful? It would define those as my personality, but were they actually responses to poor nurture?