Is God's Providence Calling Gay People?

i feel so many christians struggle with this, but they just hear the super conservative side or the super progressive side. i think jackie hill parry sows it so beautifully, that god is calling us to himself and god gives us away, live in radical obedience. So then for me, the question became, o ky, do i live this life that societies tell me will make me happy, or do i livethis life that my faith is calling me to?