Alla, whenever we're ral telling you, and especially if we hopefully get pregnant and have a second chiald because it's just gotng to be deeper. The saints and mystics say, quote, when i'm nobody, i'm everybody. This is why so few people truly seek an authentic spiritual life. Who wants to be nothing? We've all been told the point was to be somebody. John of the cross expressed it this way. To come to the pleasure you have not, you must go by in a way, i can't read thishaha, ha ha ha. I'm too, i'm too ah, let's let's end it there.