The Weight of Drinking

I drink because of the unbearable feeling of just being alive sometimes. I think that there's some carbon scoring on my circuit board from some laser blast sustained in childhood or, or by, or by nature. That have inherent disconnections and alcohol sort of like, you know, it lowers inhibitions,. It allows arcs to happen across circuits that are otherwise kind of go their own, the certain path. And only that path. Yeah. Allows me to do what other people get to dokind of normally by my perception, which is small talk and just impulsiveness. Otherwise I'm just sort of like eating an entire chicken.Yeah. Can I ask you a weird one? Well I drink because