The Secret Death Wish

There's like a little radar in me that finds those women and like it just pings. Why do men want that in a woman? Is there some you know my therapist would say like it's some secret death wish? I've had cats all my life and I don't think I have toxoplasmosis or a BPD. Well yeah that's why women are drawn to cats also because we're all infected with the parasite. It's like handle cat shit to get  get.