Your real self shouldn't be a concept of what others have of you. That's a huge thing you learn in your 20s. And that I like have this amazing spiritual healer friend in Corumban. She always said that to me, when going through hard times, the only person that gets to create your happiness is yourself. The pill sucks. It fucked us both up royally. Now I'm beautiful and my skin's beautiful. So I went on it for my skincare and now my skin's better. Anyway, let's get back on track.