I was super depressed but I sat with you and we just talked about it. It was like a turning point in that story. Where I was like actually I can make it through because I've got this person who even if everything else falls apart. But the thing is I obviously naturally come back to Melbourne because my family's here. You're not going to naturally make it. You don't even know what Canberra is. And there were so many times when we could have gone our separate ways and just like stopped being in touch. Every single time I feel like you've really made the effort to be like I'm coming back to Melbourne. Like let's do this. Whereas I have not