If you try to bring your ego meaning may Martin with you into the realization of oneness you'll have a psychic break mmm that's the definition of paranoia. The Eckhart Tolle book "The power of now" is an audiobook I've never read it yeah and it's a classic right? It has a lot of what you were talking about in your bed, like who am IYeah neutrality is is the study of what doesn't change so when you were eight or 13 yeah I'm a cigarette on stageWhat was what part didn't change when you meet Norman Lear: his awareness.