"There's awit ness in us, but we often it gets obscured by whatever the fucg it is we're worrying about to day," she says. "If you wash your dishes consciously, if you talk to me right now, we have an opportunity to do it right now." A friend of hers who was into zen buddhism once said that feelings are sort of like passing through you and don't change or what? You can only be where you're at in the moment, in that story that you're experiencing om and right?