Did you recognize any of the patients in the documents that they were sharing with you?

I did. I recognized many of the patients and that I had taken care of and the patients who died in my care and on my watch. Yes.

You want you started to place people, patients with these dogs? Did you start to go back in your mind thinking, well, that night I was there. I was at 1052 and Charlie, what did you start to remember?

I started to really drive myself crazy, trying to find a time when I had overlooked something or that maybe my intuition had been kicked in and there just wasn't. I had so much guilt that I could not think of a single moment where my intuition said something is wrong. There was one particular code that Charlie and I had done together and I had walked in on him injecting a patient. I do recall that that particular medication was not the medication that we should have been using to treat that particular dysrhythmia. I eventually had covered up for him. I had said that it was me who ordered that particular medication and later I found out that that patient had been allergic to that medication and probably it was that medication that killed her and that I had walked in on him. During the code later I was responsible for everything that happened in that code and I wondered in that code why he chose that particular medication. I assumed because of who he was and that he was making an executive decision or perhaps he didn't have the correct medication and the medication that he gave really wasn't wrong. It was just a medication that we didn't necessarily use anymore. I kept thinking that perhaps I was just making this all up in my head and I was seeing something that I was being told to see. I could not reconcile that my friend Charlie, this gentle and kind person, could have done these terrible

things.