i realized if my father had welcomed me into maleness, it would have meant something to me. All the guys i know are looking for some sort of belonging not just in the world, but in their gender. It's hurtful to be excluded based on your anatomy and then hurtful because you're not being seen as who you are. And that sor did you feel as i did a longing? Don't let me put anything on you. I see myself in that. My entire life,. i was told i couldn't be, yes, you know, i was told  my, my dad side of the family, they're, they're from west virginia.