I'm a Lebanese, I've Been Here for a Long Time, I Don't Know What I Am Feeling Right Now

For a long, for a long time, I didn't. And I don't know, maybe part of me was even resisting it. What I've learned from my own experience and other folks who are in similar or even worse situations is that it actually kind of just keeps up on you. It's something that just progressively a new reality sets in because you've been there for so many years. So yeah, it definitely had that sort of women feeling, as you said, and I think I easily believe that it would last a little longer.