I Believe in God, but I Hate It

i've never been more afraid to say, to come out, that i believe in god. I hate when other people tell me they believe in god, because it freaks me out. Ever, i literally, i read this book called transforming. It's on my shelf for forever and i just happened to pick it up as i went through this thing where i was finding, you know, christian spirituality that was in direct resistance to the sort of christian nationalism that's happening. Because i just needed that in my life. In love and truth, there is no gender. There is no gentile or jew. Which is not to say you must be christian. It cause,