If i give up these sources of artificial pleasure that can lead to ediction and desensitize me, or just bring misery down on me later by missing them, then i'm miserable because i don't get to socialize with anybody. These fake relationships and these fake activities were just being held together by the alcohol. I realized a while back that it's actually a problem to really look forward to holidays and to week ends,. It means you've accepted a way of life in which most of your time is spent suffering. A lot of times when i'm saying you want to be happy, what i'm actually saying as you want to find peace. We say peace of mind, but...