Is There a Better Way to Live Than That?

I remember igt picked up my hand. His left hand is pretty much detached at this point, initiate, didn't occur my hand. I tried to stand up about three times, and it curedto me. And i looked down, and that's what i saw. Everything was just ripped open. Mat says stuff like this all the time. He might say, not to sound too dramatic, even when things couldn't humanly be more dramatic. Or it was going to get worse before it got better, which means it's going to get really bad.