Discipline Is the Same as Freedom

i feel like i as some one who as raised in an atheist, relatively permissive household, i still had this like, inner drill sergeant that came from. It made me seek out other drill sergeants, you know, whether it was my socker coach or my music teacher or bandmates later on. A, so i think it's probably related to the same kind of, ah impulse that makes people get into religions. You know, it's this idea that the world is tamable and that if we just have enough discipline, we can control the outcome. But rather than acknowledging that it's completely chaotic, and that although we can try to control the outcome, it doesn't