The Fear of Telling Someone I Think Is Horrible

From the age of about eight or nine. I was at least different. And in fact I probably had that sense long before then but it sort of became more I became a bit more aware of it around the age of 8 or 9. Just the fear of telling someone I think is horrible. It's really no one else has to have serious conversations. Yeah we're just sort of so fraught with kind of the fear of how awesome reacts. God I'm going to feel so self-conscious saying. Is that awkwardness of going I have to have a really serious conversation with you? No people were like oh yeah I told them when I was 14. I was like oh no I had