Is There an Impending Family Obligation?

In the beginning, i wanted to fight in battle. And any time lolly would very gently and very kindly and compassionately try to kind of drop her observations my way, i went into complete immediate defence mode. A lot of times we do that when we see the reflection of us in our family. It's so difficult, because when we peel back those those layers, you know, to look, it can be a really painful process.