I Am So Grateful to Be Alive, but I Don't Want to Say It

"I am not the kind of person that forces myself to be grateful when I am not feeling it," she says. "If I don't feel grateful in the moment, well, maybe I didn't have a good night's sleep and I'm still trying to wake up" She adds: "As soon as I force gratitude inside my mind and my body and it is not what I'm feeling in the moment ... then I feel bad."