The Foundational Ideas of Being Grey

i've been thinking a lot abouti, why is it that i've had this period of chaos? Or if i feel like, oh, things have been just like, it's hard to maintain a schedule. I too want more order in my life. There are some things that i think of as the foundational ideas of being grey. What at the very core are some of the things that ithink are like, the most important about living life.