How Did This Experience Go Into Theropean?

I was given a booklet that was printed by a evergreen, which is an organization that doesn't really exist any more. It was a lds group designed for m helping gay members of the church. So it was definitely geared towards that aspect of it. There were also things in the book like encouraging me to play basket ball and undoing manly things and establishing good relationships with men. And so fixing those w would fix this. But i just got tired. I was tired of putting effort into all of this and not seeing any results. How old were yu when you wer like making that decision? I'm probably were only 23.