I always used to do is find people that sort of look like me in the before and then I'm like okay well look how they look after. The only thing that really has ever been able to keep me from blowing the fuck up again was that dude I recognized that it's a mental thing first. Once I started recognizing that it changed the whole game  and how much more successful you became outside the gym. You have to we starts with the food or eating right it starts with the the amount of water you're drinking it starts with doing your training and start you know those are the things that build thatYou can't get physically into this kind of shape because hey I just have to