I've Lost My Son, and I'm So Scared

My son fell off a stool and passed out. It was the most frightening thing i've ever done. He suffered something called a vegavasorvasa vegal a sindocope - passing out due to troma or tiredness. His brain completely shut down, and he began gagging on his tongue rit. We ended up spending the night in, or the evening in saint thomas's hospital. And it also made me very think, ok, because what i do is because i want to live an meaningful life.