The Kindness of the Lord That Leads Us to Repentance

I was thinking how gosh it's the kindness of the Lord ever led me to repentance or is it the next part of the verse you know but because of your stubbornness and your underpants and heart you're storing a wrath for yourself on the day of judgment like I go okay I better repent. There was just like this side of me that's missing out on this pleasure. The more I talk about it the more people are just it's like that aha moment of this is ridiculous.